Holding this back for the longest time.

I thought and planned like everyone did that on the 14 of Feb will be a special day.
Like what i wrote in the card; you made this day special.

I guess i am all wrong. For so much you wished for me to understand you, for so much i wish for you to understand me. But when i tried; i cried; i gave up my pride to ask if you want me to go to your house to company you. You said - NO.

I don't know how much longer i can hold; the feeling of your heart getting stabbed, so deep that it dosen't even bleed anymore. Everything had wilted.

Roses had wilted, the heart had wilted. Nothing is left for you to hold unto; whats the meaning anyway?

I feel so silly, like a fool. The emotional pain i feel; can't be described. I wish, i hope, i die.

My heart; my feelings towards you is punched, piereced over times and times again; cracks and now its broken. Just like the crystal bottle necklace.

Its a broken heart; you can't just replace it - in the future; because it died.