Trust again.

It comes to a halt where it does not matter if it is me attending any events or camps.

I used to think, it's my fault for making you feel insecure then think and see it for yourself. Am going around like a desperate person making eyes at guys? NO. Everyone around can judge this. I don't even understand why did I apologise to you before. If I did, I admit, well but I did not AT ALL.

You love to jump into conclusions don't you? Sorting out all possibilities that might happen. Think again, when you do sort out of the possibilities think of how much distrust you feel towards me.

I am fucking tired of apologising, trying to make everything seem like my fault.
I hate so much being suspected of things I never do.

I do feel upset, not because I am regretful of anything, but feeling disappointed at how your trust for me can be this little after 8 months being together.

I shed a tear, but nothing more came out. It was a tear of tiredness.

Tired of chasing, explaining, crying.
This is how I feel. Read that line again.

Then again, am I ready for anything?
My lifespan of my patience is growing shorter and shorter bcos it was drained. Trust is what I need, not a full load of suspicions. I hate it, everyone does.